Limited Time for Reading Books

I always thought it was my fault for not reading enough books, but now I realize that the heavy workload really prevents me from doing so. Most of the time that I dedicated to reading this weekend had to come directly from my work time. Right now, I really want to finish the book I'm reading, but I just don't have enough time. It's painful!

Marshmallow and Everyone Else

Yesterday, as we walked into the house after a 9-day trip, both Sophie and I were concerned about Marshmallow's wellbeing. I had done my best to prepare everything for his care, ensuring he had enough food and clean water for our time away. I even got him two types of food! However, things went wrong. The water was a mess—the tank's filtering system had malfunctioned, and the filter was clogged with some kind of slimy liquid. The water was murky, and fish food was scattered throughout the tank.

Sophie began to cry, but I tried to keep my emotions in check. We were all feeling the weight of another loss, and I couldn't help but blame myself for keeping a pet. This had happened before when we lost another fish, a loss I still grieve.

This is why I hesitated to get another fish. The pet fish was a gift to Sophie from her uncle. This was the first time Sophie had to grieve a loss, as she was too young during the previous incident. She tried to process her grief through art, creating a drawing for Marshmallow. I don't think she blamed us, but I did, and I still do. I struggle with the idea of keeping pets and supporting breeders. I'm sorry, Marshmallow. I'm sorry, Mom. I'm sorry, Mohammadreza, Mansoor, and everyone else.

Anatomy of a Disappearance Novel by Hisham Matar

خوندنی بود. شباهت هاش با نکاتی که در The Return آورده بود جالب بودن. می تونستی تشخیص بدی که اینجا موضوع واقعا تو زندگی خودش اتفاق افتاده. نمیشه گفت خیلی خوبه اما خوب بود.